this morning i got off the train at 77th and walked straight into labor and delivery before i realized i was in the wrong building. i know. wishful thinking. long story short the wee lad is ready to go - turned back around to the right position, 3 centimeters, something was bulging which she said was a positive sign, all the good stuff. so she stripped my membranes which ow, doesn't feel good at all, and if i don't go tonight on my own, she's going to break my water after we put the pancakes to bed tomorrow night. all that to say, at the very latest we'll have a little mushy baby on saturday. it seems SO surreal. after thinking about him for months and month and months we finally get to meet him. i hope he has long pretty fingers like his dad. and the thomas blue eyes which are so beautiful and i hope he is as funny as i am. when we were at this stage with saida and hilina, on a flight somewhere over one of the four continents we traveled across to meet them, it was christmas eve. sigh. i am feeling so lucky right now.
here is the last belly picture - 40 weeks, 3 days.
if you can pray that all goes well, and that the girls do okay we would be so grateful. even though i know they will be with my mom it will be so hard for me to be away from them, i've never been away from them for more than a few waking hours.
now it's time for me to go clean some corners again.